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Wrote this on a plane about a month ago. Turns out march wasn’t so bad after all
Apr 16, 2014 / 6 notes

Wrote this on a plane about a month ago. Turns out march wasn’t so bad after all

Apr 2, 2014 / 2 notes

Numbness journal

There was a type of pleasure that came with feeling. And I know this should hurt and your absence should make me ache but it just made me hallow. A part of me wants to cry so I can feel myself bleeding out the toxins you injected into my veins with your hurtful words, but my ducts ran dry long before we severed, and now I am here alone yet unfeeling. Your constant verbal manipulation has made me immune to it now. Your distinctive clomping exit from my life came like just another day. I suppose you’ve made jaded to heartbreak. And I guess I could thank you for that. But I don’t know if brokenness would be easier if I felt it. And I worry that this emotional nothingness isn’t really closure but rather a mental hurdle I can’t yet overcome. If it is, I’m certainly not trying to overcome it. I’m a little too comfortable being stuck here.

Mar 26, 2014
a trip to poets house
Mar 23, 2014 / 1 note

a trip to poets house

Mar 16, 2014 / 2 notes
Mar 4, 2014 / 1 note

stream of consciousness 3/4/14

My body’s coping mechanism with fear amplifies my reality and worsens its aftermath. I cope with fear by ignoring its inevitably. The problem is I fear confrontation with fear, and by avoiding it I only affirm my reasons for worry. Waves of realization come and go, accompanied with painful shivers down my spine and tensed shoulders. “Just make it go away” says my brain. And then I once again resume telling myself that it won’t return, so I can successfully convince myself that these shocks of pain aren’t reoccurring. Of course that isn’t true. It’s funny how I prolong my suffering due to my fear of suffering.

Feb 6, 2014 / 5 notes

What’s weird about being newly single….

What’s weird about being newly single is for some reason it’s hard to do.

As if I wasn’t born this way. 

As if waking up to an empty phone was a foreign concept. 

As if your face is all I’ve ever known.

And when I see you walk past me head down with big clomping strides I wonder why 

Why is that easy to do?

As if you didn’t buy me a stuffed monkey for my birthday.

As if we didn’t lie in your bed for hours on a Sunday afternoon.

As if you’d never seen me with the lights off.

Why are these changes so simple? How can they be easy or hard?

This seems so simple. 

What I felt for you was so much more yet now…

It never felt simple until now.

To me you were laughter and tears. 

To me you were shelter and isolation. 

Now you are a boy with bad posture standing in my fucking way. 

Simple. 

Being newly single is simple.

There is no us and what of it and why and what are we doing and how is this working and why am I crying and why aren’t you calling and what are we doing what are we doing what the hell are we doing. 

It’s just me. 

Get out of my way. 

newjerseybum:

The romantic and the realist.

What’s crazy is I knew it from the start, and it was still a risk worth taking..
Feb 2, 2014 / 25 notes

newjerseybum:

The romantic and the realist.

What’s crazy is I knew it from the start, and it was still a risk worth taking..

… poetry is the spontaneous overflow of powerful feelings: it takes its origin from emotion recollected in tranquility: the emotion is contemplated till, by a species of reaction, the tranquility gradually disappears, and an emotion, kindred to that which was before the subject of contemplation, is gradually produced, and does itself actually exist in the mind… .
From the Preface of Lyrical Ballads
Jan 21, 2014 / 7 notes
The romantic and the realist.
Jan 6, 2014 / 25 notes

The romantic and the realist.

It will never be easy… but I think it’s worth doing.
Jan 5, 2014 / 24 notes

It will never be easy… but I think it’s worth doing.

I wrote this in about five minutes. Things are starting to feel easy.
Jan 1, 2014 / 18 notes

I wrote this in about five minutes. Things are starting to feel easy.

Jan 1, 2014

New Years Resolution for 2014: Write More

Nov 27, 2013 / 27 notes
Nov 14, 2013

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